Distance Apart

It's kind hard for me and my Amor, to have relationship that is separate by long distance. It's Hard and too many obstacles that always appears in daily life.

Sometimes I feel lonely, because she is not here with me and sometime i really miss her or sometimes i just envy to other couples because they are dating in front of me.One of the weird thing is, sometimes i just want to end this relationship because it's too hard and feelings fade away..

Well..that's right because in order to keep love alive at least you should spend more time with your love one, otherwise the feeling may fade away or somebody may replace you...

I feel same way...At some point i really miss her but at some point also i just wanna to end this relationship. I am sure she is also feeling same way....
But if i look more deeply..our relationship is putting into test, if we can survive then she is mine that God has sent to me :D....

It's has been rough path for both of us because, the only way we can contact each other is by SMS or Calling and i hope she can understand and just hope that i am still hers

How I Met Her

Well..it's all started when i enter my university year. I am person who is "shy" and tend to hide behind box so there were a lot of girls in my uni but i am not brave enough to date them + i don't have confident in my self.
Acctually we were in different departement, so we rarely see each other. Even when we pass by each other, we just ignore each other because i don't feel anything to her so does she.

On one day..we just joke among our class mate about who's dating other girls or boys from other departement and out from no where..i asked one of my friend what's her name...and there you go...news all of over the class that i have feelings for her and she heard the news but she just ignore + sometimes i saw her "boyfriend" so for me was just to ignore yet im still curious about her.

As time goes...i got scholarship and 2 days before i leave the country..i told her about what i feel...of course not from eyes to eyes but from letter that i do really like her. She was a little upset because i told her right on time where i should leave. I act so stupid and coward because if i told her earlier at least we went out together and create some memories before i leave...gosh i hate for what i have done

Any way..i gave her, my pic and letter..and she gave me also her pic and letters which until now im still keeping it. Thanks for technology otherwise we lost contact forever.
So i have unfinished task...I swear by the time i return i should hang out with her more. ....

Honey...just wait me there..sure i will be back to you coz i am yours....

"Aeroporto Comoro Mak Hatene"

Timor-Leste and Her Problem

From the size of the country, any body can say that..this is second smallest country in asia after singapore yet her problem is not as small as hers size. The Political drama is to complex and yet to complicated. Perhaps...it's start long before Timo-Leste( TL) got independence and carried away until today. So i don't know...who is white and black...

Last week on 11 of January 2008, TL president was shotted with bullet but luckly he survived the assasination and currently undergoes treatment in Darwin Hospital, wheares Mr. Prime Minister escape the assination without any injured.

What acctually happen??

For me I think Mr. Alfredo Reinaldo and Mr. President were trapped. A third person may have told Alfredo to come down to meet President without President realized. So when he(Alfredo) arrive at the residence of president, he was faced with gun firing and he died on the spot. Wheareas Mr. President was out of his house(Jogging in morning) and when he came back from jogging, a bullet hit twice his body.

Strange thing is Alfredo and Mr. President always meet each other per month in Alfredo's camp to discuss how to solve problem without create violence, and if Alfredo really want to kill President he would have done without come down to capital. The other strange thing is, by the time President hitted by bullet, Alfredo and his men already died so how come Alfredo shoot president if he already died?

Now to add more strange thing is...the current goverment refuse to set-up independent inquiry and just want to wait FBI & Police invistigation...

So who is real actor here....and who is third person here....guess what even small kid can answers this question.

Gone with the wind

Last week on 27 January 2008, one of the most powerful military man passed away. That is Pak Harto. Just like every leader in the world, they will be evaluate when passed away. so let's evaluate him....

Achievements....

1. According to west, he was credited for destroy Communist from Indonesia and eventually knock-out communist from all the region.

2. He was credited for setting up ASEAN.

3. During one period of his era, Indonesia able to export rice and eventually won prize from WHO.

4. Extremist, Fundamentalist & terorists never heard

5. Keep the state secular even though it has majority of muslims in the world

6. Defender of "Pancasila" and "Bhineka-Tunggal Ika"

7. And more....

Failure

1. Worst human rights record.

2.Killing his own people. eg: Timor-Timor(now Timor-Leste), Aceh, Irian-Jaya, Maluku and etc.

3.Corruption & nepotisme flourish everywhere

4. No freedom of expression(only got 3 partys in whole country)

5. And more....

We forgive you but never forget what you have done...

Rest In Peace???

Ada Apa Dengan Alfredo???

Alfredo Reindao. The so called "Mr.Prion Breaker" of Timor Leste. In prison break series, Michael Scofield a.k.a Wentworth Miller run away from prison by digging a big hole wheareas Alfredo is not. He just run away from prison in the middle of the day and thru main gate. That's true...he ran away thru main gate which was heavely guard by NZ and Timor-Leste polices.He went to live in mountain with his soldiers and accuse current prime minister of Timor-Leste as actor that behind 2006 crisis which left 30 people dead and many went for refugees.

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Politic is fucking dirty shit. He collaborated with current PM and "overthrow" previous PM but at the moment he is neglected by current PM. What a pity....Feeling that he has been neglected, "Mr. Prison breaker" launch attact on PM and demand justice for him. Well....now you can see, that u have been used, but any way...u have learn great lesson that politic never be trusted. My words for you: If u are son of your father...come out and shows who is behind 2006 crisis.

VIVA TIMOR-LESTE

Love never meant to be

Have u watched movie called "Alexandria"...??
Seeing this movie, remind me of my high school "girlfriend". We were best friend. We went to same school, study together and we become top class students. But deep down in my heart i was loving her and want her to be my soulmate...unfortunatelly i was not brave enough to tell her how much i love her and came the other friend, he proposed his love to her, though she rejected but this "playboy" friend of mine tell the whole high school how much he loved her. He even tell me that, he hope one day can marry her(*sigh* i want to punch his face). After we graduate, she went to Indonesia to study in Jawa. The night before she leave i couldn't sleep, thinking all about her. After that we lost contact...no news..no phone call..no emails..& etc.

Bin sal bin...abra kada..bra...this morning, i surf internet and i saw her profile in hi5. Oh my God..i was so excited..without wasting my time i send her email, asking about her condition and bla..bla..bla(she is in NZ). She did reply and ask me to keep in touch.

Funny thing is...i didn't tell what i feel. I guess i just let all this feeling to the time coz both of us already have different lifestyle. But anyway..this is what they call as love. Sometimes if u really love her..just let her go and love her from distance. one thing for sure: i will never forget this memory.

Obrigado Meu Deus

Obrigado Deus...
Nao tenho mais frase que pode representar o meu gratidao
Obrigado Deus....
Mas que muito tempo sempre castigar Voce
Obrigado Deus....
para neste valor de semestre...
Poco pra Voce,nao pode abandona-me
porque sem Ti, eu nao existe...