MUSAFIR JALANAN

Distance Apart

2008-03-16T11:19:00.000-07:00

It's kind hard for me and my Amor, to have relationship that is separate by long distance. It's Hard and too many obstacles that always appears in daily life.

Sometimes I feel lonely, because she is not here with me and sometime i really miss her or sometimes i just envy to other couples because they are dating in front of me.One of the weird thing is, sometimes i just want to end this relationship because it's too hard and feelings fade away..

Well..that's right because in order to keep love alive at least you should spend more time with your love one, otherwise the feeling may fade away or somebody may replace you...

I feel same way...At some point i really miss her but at some point also i just wanna to end this relationship. I am sure she is also feeling same way....
But if i look more deeply..our relationship is putting into test, if we can survive then she is mine that God has sent to me :D....

It's has been rough path for both of us because, the only way we can contact each other is by SMS or Calling and i hope she can understand and just hope that i am still hers

How I Met Her

2008-03-05T22:56:00.000-08:00

Well..it's all started when i enter my university year. I am person who is "shy" and tend to hide behind box so there were a lot of girls in my uni but i am not brave enough to date them + i don't have confident in my self.
Acctually we were in different departement, so we rarely see each other. Even when we pass by each other, we just ignore each other because i don't feel anything to her so does she.

On one day..we just joke among our class mate about who's dating other girls or boys from other departement and out from no where..i asked one of my friend what's her name...and there you go...news all of over the class that i have feelings for her and she heard the news but she just ignore + sometimes i saw her "boyfriend" so for me was just to ignore yet im still curious about her.

As time goes...i got scholarship and 2 days before i leave the country..i told her about what i feel...of course not from eyes to eyes but from letter that i do really like her. She was a little upset because i told her right on time where i should leave. I act so stupid and coward because if i told her earlier at least we went out together and create some memories before i leave...gosh i hate for what i have done

Any way..i gave her, my pic and letter..and she gave me also her pic and letters which until now im still keeping it. Thanks for technology otherwise we lost contact forever.
So i have unfinished task...I swear by the time i return i should hang out with her more. ....

Honey...just wait me there..sure i will be back to you coz i am yours....

"Aeroporto Comoro Mak Hatene"

Timor-Leste and Her Problem

2008-02-28T17:35:00.000-08:00

From the size of the country, any body can say that..this is second smallest country in asia after singapore yet her problem is not as small as hers size. The Political drama is to complex and yet to complicated. Perhaps...it's start long before Timo-Leste( TL) got independence and carried away until today. So i don't know...who is white and black...

Last week on 11 of January 2008, TL president was shotted with bullet but luckly he survived the assasination and currently undergoes treatment in Darwin Hospital, wheares Mr. Prime Minister escape the assination without any injured.

What acctually happen??

For me I think Mr. Alfredo Reinaldo and Mr. President were trapped. A third person may have told Alfredo to come down to meet President without President realized. So when he(Alfredo) arrive at the residence of president, he was faced with gun firing and he died on the spot. Wheareas Mr. President was out of his house(Jogging in morning) and when he came back from jogging, a bullet hit twice his body.

Strange thing is Alfredo and Mr. President always meet each other per month in Alfredo's camp to discuss how to solve problem without create violence, and if Alfredo really want to kill President he would have done without come down to capital. The other strange thing is, by the time President hitted by bullet, Alfredo and his men already died so how come Alfredo shoot president if he already died?

Now to add more strange thing is...the current goverment refuse to set-up independent inquiry and just want to wait FBI & Police invistigation...

So who is real actor here....and who is third person here....guess what even small kid can answers this question.

Gone with the wind

2008-02-04T22:59:00.000-08:00

Last week on 27 January 2008, one of the most powerful military man passed away. That is Pak Harto. Just like every leader in the world, they will be evaluate when passed away. so let's evaluate him....

Achievements....

1. According to west, he was credited for destroy Communist from Indonesia and eventually knock-out communist from all the region.

2. He was credited for setting up ASEAN.

3. During one period of his era, Indonesia able to export rice and eventually won prize from WHO.

4. Extremist, Fundamentalist & terorists never heard

5. Keep the state secular even though it has majority of muslims in the world

6. Defender of "Pancasila" and "Bhineka-Tunggal Ika"

7. And more....

Failure

1. Worst human rights record.

2.Killing his own people. eg: Timor-Timor(now Timor-Leste), Aceh, Irian-Jaya, Maluku and etc.

3.Corruption & nepotisme flourish everywhere

4. No freedom of expression(only got 3 partys in whole country)

5. And more....

We forgive you but never forget what you have done...

Rest In Peace???

Ada Apa Dengan Alfredo???

2008-01-21T06:41:00.000-08:00

Alfredo Reindao. The so called "Mr.Prion Breaker" of Timor Leste. In prison break series, Michael Scofield a.k.a Wentworth Miller run away from prison by digging a big hole wheareas Alfredo is not. He just run away from prison in the middle of the day and thru main gate. That's true...he ran away thru main gate which was heavely guard by NZ and Timor-Leste polices.He went to live in mountain with his soldiers and accuse current prime minister of Timor-Leste as actor that behind 2006 crisis which left 30 people dead and many went for refugees.

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Politic is fucking dirty shit. He collaborated with current PM and "overthrow" previous PM but at the moment he is neglected by current PM. What a pity....Feeling that he has been neglected, "Mr. Prison breaker" launch attact on PM and demand justice for him. Well....now you can see, that u have been used, but any way...u have learn great lesson that politic never be trusted. My words for you: If u are son of your father...come out and shows who is behind 2006 crisis.

VIVA TIMOR-LESTE

Love never meant to be

2008-01-13T14:57:00.000-08:00

Have u watched movie called "Alexandria"...??
Seeing this movie, remind me of my high school "girlfriend". We were best friend. We went to same school, study together and we become top class students. But deep down in my heart i was loving her and want her to be my soulmate...unfortunatelly i was not brave enough to tell her how much i love her and came the other friend, he proposed his love to her, though she rejected but this "playboy" friend of mine tell the whole high school how much he loved her. He even tell me that, he hope one day can marry her(*sigh* i want to punch his face). After we graduate, she went to Indonesia to study in Jawa. The night before she leave i couldn't sleep, thinking all about her. After that we lost contact...no news..no phone call..no emails..& etc.

Bin sal bin...abra kada..bra...this morning, i surf internet and i saw her profile in hi5. Oh my God..i was so excited..without wasting my time i send her email, asking about her condition and bla..bla..bla(she is in NZ). She did reply and ask me to keep in touch.

Funny thing is...i didn't tell what i feel. I guess i just let all this feeling to the time coz both of us already have different lifestyle. But anyway..this is what they call as love. Sometimes if u really love her..just let her go and love her from distance. one thing for sure: i will never forget this memory.

Obrigado Meu Deus

2008-01-13T14:40:00.000-08:00

Obrigado Deus...
Nao tenho mais frase que pode representar o meu gratidao
Obrigado Deus....
Mas que muito tempo sempre castigar Voce
Obrigado Deus....
para neste valor de semestre...
Poco pra Voce,nao pode abandona-me
porque sem Ti, eu nao existe...

Are you Bookworm?

2007-12-31T09:19:00.000-08:00

Let me repeat. Are you bookworm? how many books that you have read? please share together ok, as for me here are my list:

The Da Vinci Code: It was very controversial, that's why i bought it.

Decoded Da Vinci Code: Written by Christian writer. This book is to answer The Da Vinci Code
Gerakan/Jihad Fi Sabilillah & Cabarannya: written by Abdul Qadir Djaelani, this book about Jihad/Holy War from Islamic point of view

From Beirut To Jerusalem: Borrow it from UTP's library. This book is written by Ms Swee Chai Ang about Sabra-Shatila massacres.

The Tiger Who Smiled:Written by Tim Donoghue. It's about Malaysian Top lawyer Karpal Singh who try to rescue two New Zealanders from death penalty because of drug trafficking. Borrowed from UTP's library

Ayat-Ayat Cinta: Written by Indonesian's best seller novelist Habiburrahman El-Shirazy.It mix of Islamic Novel, Culture Novel and Love story novel which young people like very much.

Tersungkur Di Pintu "Syurga": It's second hand book. I bought with RM2 in Novel Hunt/Ipoh Parade. Written by Zabidi Mohamed. It's about how people being brainwashed by powerfull Malaysian 'Islamic' society and about untold truth & inside story of Al-Arqam & I.S.A

Pembicaraan Confucius: Translate by Obaidellah Haji Mohamad, bought it in Novel Hunt. It's about Confucius idea.

My Life: Written by Former USA Prsedient Bill Clinton.It's his autobiography.

Mahatma Gandhi: Bought in MPH, its Gandhi's autobiography
The Art of Happiness: Is a Dalai Lama's teaching thru the perspective of a western psychiatrist, Dr. Howard C. Cutler. I borrowed this book from UTP's library.
The Killing Machine by my Idol Fidel Castro Ruz
Melawan Aksi Bom Imam Samudera and Nordin M. Top by Nassir Abbas. This book is to counter "Aku Teroris" book.
Just read half of Princess and Daughter of Arabia...and will not continou coz the way the author write is so biased.

Currentlly still reading: 2 of Anwar Ibrahim's books, Daughter of Arabia, Princess, Daun-daun Mahoni gugur lagi & Cermin Hati.

P.S: I m looking for Pramoedya Anata Toer's Novel...help me pls

RECAP 2007

2007-12-31T08:49:00.000-08:00

I started 2007's year with very terribly. I went home amd come back with very bad condition as i had asthma deasese. I don't know that i got asthma till i was hospitalized. It affect may studies as i failed 2 subjects..
I start to play Badminton. Since i was kid...i am fond to badminton but i can't play coz my health limited me. But this year start to play and immediatelly i am become addicted to it. I start to watching badminton superseries and join badminton discussion.
I created a blog. Though it's kind of my diary but i want the whole world to know what i feel.
I broke up with my girl friend...later on i realize i made mistake and apologized and continou again...Funny..i am so selfish..:p
I move to another room. I stay in single room and i wish to continou till i gradute from this Uni.

Hummmm....what else ah? I forgot..i will continou later.

Xmas SMS part II

2007-12-31T08:16:00.000-08:00

The language that used is Tetum-Timor Leste national language-it's basically all about wishing Xmas and Happy New Year.

Me= Boa tarde. diak k lae? Smoga buat hotu lao diak. BOAS FESTAS DO NATAL E FELIZ ANO NOVO. Iha dosi karik kirim oituan mai. eh..eh..eh:p halimar deit. Cumprimentos ba familia.
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Tio Do/Polisi= Boas festas do santo Natal 25 de Dezembro e Ano novo de 2008 cheias de prosperiadade. Ami iha Lps diak, besik karik ita han dosi hamutuk maibe Malaysia Timor dok malu. Beijos Tio Domingos e familia
Primo Ano= Thanks ba Primo. Hau la haluha 1. It nia foto uluk sei kiik it hasai iha Com nee hau sei rai hela. B imi diak k lae? Hau diak deit maibe lasente hanesan Natal + iha sapeo metan nia rai nebe lasente 1. Agora ema teror ami aat, serang ita krus sira nb keta haluha reza mai ami. Beona do santo Natal e um optimo Ano novo. Abraco Ano.
Tio Abel Hera= Boa tarde, boas festas do Natal e feliz do Ano Novo. Ami laiha buat ida atu fo ba ita boot maibe ami husu ba Maromak atu tulun ita para estuda lalais hotu.
Apolo's Papa= B'tarde, igualmente ami diak hotu ho nain nia tulun ita hetan malu masque liu husi anin deit. Dosi iha mak hau haruka husi anin deit. estuda didiak. Apolo.
Mana Tata= Obrigado ba ita nia boas festas do Natal, hau ho hau nia alin desejo Gaspar ho kolega Feliz Natal e Ano Novo 2008 nakonu ho felicidade ho suseso. Ami agora iha singapore. Tata e Febi
Tio Sabino=Ben Corazen Natal iha Malay e Feliz do Ano Novo 08 in Malay. Ben Estuda e graca Maraomak Nafatin.
Olivi Maufelo= Boas Festas Natal ninia 25-12-07 ho Tinan Foun 01-01-08. Kosok oan Jesus sei acompanha nafatin ho ita iha knar lor-loron nia.
Anati= Festas diak Natal nian ba ita ho kolega nia familia. Ho Natal kmanek bele lori ita ba moris foun nebe nakonu ho paz no dame laran. Obrigado. N.V Henriques ho familia!
Jacinto= Thanks. Boas Festas mos. Cump ba maluk Timor oan sira hotu. Smoga Festas Natal bele haraik Espirito Matenek nian ba ita iha procesu estudo ida nee. GBU.
Tio Tomas= Boas Festas Natal e Feliz Ano Novo 2008
Tio Abel= He sent me an email and wish me Merry Xmas and Happy New Year

X'mas SMS part I

2007-12-28T08:12:00.000-08:00

Me : Hi. How r u? Merry Christmas & Happy New Year
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Siradick: Hi, Gaspar. Nice surprise 2 hear from you. I am fine, thnx. Hope ur doin well 2. merry christmas.
Me: It's been long time. I think since moral studies class:D. all the best
Siradick: Ha ha ha..Ya pretty long time...:p
Joel: O, Hi:) I'm in Swak now. Happy Merry Christmas to you too. not goin
back to celebrate? it's a very long holyday for us.
Me: I'll celebrate here. Enjoy ur holydays
Daniel : Hey..tnx gaspar. Merry xmas n happy new yr 2 u too:)
Bart: Hohoho...Merry Christmas. Hv a blessed n joyful christmas to u n ur
loved 1...where my xmas present? hehe
Jacky : Hey gaspar :) Im fin tnx. Currently doing internship. Its ok so
far...how r u ? merry xmas & happy new year to u too..
Michele: Hey, fine here. hope i r too :) MERRY CHRISTMAS N HAPPY NEW
YEAR 2 U!!! May the good Lord bless u. take care. Hope 2 c u soon..:)
Chiang: My hp spoil so i lose all contact. God bless u n merry christmas too.
Jesus loves u
Moorthi:Heloo..May the love, joy, hapiness and peace of Christmas be with you and your family all through the year. Merry X'mas
Zihan: He called me and wish me Merry Christmas
Camelia: She also send me SMS and wish me Merry Xmas but i deleted it b4
jot down the messege. Sorry Camy..:p

The Brave Lady

2007-12-27T08:05:00.000-08:00

Good Bye Bhutto...we will always remember you

REST IN PEACE....

Merry Christmas

2007-12-26T20:27:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas Every Body...see you next christmas...:p

Santa...I don't ask you a lot...just small matter only:

Tell my Mom,Dad,my brothers & my sisters that i love them so much
Tell my special one...:p (come on..don't laugh santa) that i miss her so much
Tell my Aunty that...i still remember her though i don't contact her often
Tell all my family that you know....i love them so much

Rutinitasku waktu liburan(December 07-Januari 08)

2007-12-19T17:15:00.001-08:00

Maen Badminton ama mas mas, bapak-bapak postgrad dari Indonesia tiap rabu malam ama minggu pagi
Nonton Badminton China Open 07, Hongkong Open 07, Asian Idol, Sea Games ama surfing(bukan ski tapi internet..wong di ASEAN mana ada salju).
Makan, Tidur, Makan, Tidur lagi. Tapi anehnya badan gue malah nggak bertambah...aneh bin ajaib
Dapet Teman baru...namanya udah lupa. Dia final year student lagi kutak katik ama tesis akhir. Kita sama sama pergi main badminton(lawan pak Joko & mas Bambang tapi akhirnya kalah dgn rubber set)
Pas tanggal 24 Dec..gw pergi ke Ipoh, memperbaiki raket gw yg udah rusak. Beli buku-2 bekas di Novel Huntnya Ipoh Parade.
Pas Natal, gw nggak ke Gereja malah maen badminton...aneh yah?? itulah namanya kalo udah addicted walau maennya nggak sebagus yg lain tapi kalo soal badminton gw sanggup rela segalanya..:)

to be continoued

Berkibarlah

2007-12-19T16:48:00.000-08:00

Walau aku tak sehebat matahari
Tak segarang ombak dilautan tasi mane
Tapi aku berjanji akan tetap menjagamu

Walau aku tak seindah tenunan tais
Tak seindah manik-maniknya putri raja
Namun aku berjanji akan tetap menghiasmu

Walau dunia dan waktu berhenti berputar,

Jiwa dan raga ini tetap mengagumi mu

Teruslah berkibar wahai Benderaku...

Maafkan Aku

2007-12-18T07:43:00.000-08:00

" Kasih ibu sepanjang masa, bagai sang surya menyinari dunia"

Itulah cuplikan dari sebuah lagu waktu saya masih zaman SD(primary school). Memang betul bahwa kasih sayang orang tua tidak akan musnah di telan waktu..tetapi bila dia bandingkan kasih sayang antara Ibu dan Ayah, ternyata Ibu lebih unggul. Maksudnya, para Ibu lebih unggul dalam mengekspresikan kasih sayang mereka, sedangkan para Ayah mereka memilih mencintai dengan diam-diam dan mengekspresikan lewat mencari nafkah.

Tiga minggu yang lalu, gue merasa sangat "homesick". Setiap hari selalu teringat akan orang tua dan adik-adik saya. tetapi seiring waktu, rasa rindu itu pun mulai sirna(bukan pupus atau musnah). Nah tau nggak, ternyata efek dari rasa rindu itu bisa dirasai oleh kedua orang tuaku, tanpa saya menelpon atau memberitahu mereka bahwa saya sedang "homesick". Ibu saya malah sampai bermimpi ngeri tentang saya. Dia menitip pesan supaya saya telpon kerumah atau kirim email secepatnya. Nah..ternyata saya nggak memenuhi permintaan ibu saya karena kredit dan pulsa saya nggak ada. Hal tsb semakin menambah rasa beban di hati mereka sampai menyuruh Pamanku untuk menelpon saya.

Mama dan Papa..Maaf yah, bukan saya nggak mau nelfon cuma kredit nggak ada. Saya janji surat saya bakal tiba dua minggu lagi.

Hard to say Good Bye

2007-12-16T20:56:00.000-08:00

Benar juga kata orang bahwa "ada pertemuan maka ada perpisahan". Pernahkan anda merasakan sedih ketika teman baikmu meninggalkan anda?? kalo belum itu bermakna ada yg kurang beres dgn kehidupan anda.

Semester kemarin merupakan semester yg penuh makna kepada diriku dan mengajar aku mengenai arti dari persahabatan. Saya merasa sedih tetapi juga bahagia karena mereka udah wisuda. sedih karena nggak akan bertemu lagi, senang karena mereka udah mencapai cita-cita mereka.

BENNET : Dia orang yg super pemalu dan pendiam. saya mulai mengenalnya waktu acara prayer meet(doa kelompok). Orangnya baik banget, nggak sombong trus suka menolong orang lain. Karena sifatnya semua orang suka kepadanya. Bagi saya dia lebih dari segalanya. Dia aku anggap sebagai kakak dan juga dewa penyelamat. Aku masih ingat, malam itu sekitar jam 6 sore, saya mulai muntah darah(saya lagi sakit). Saya mulai takut karena darah terus keluar & nggak berhenti walau udah minum obat batuk. Saya SMS Bennet, katanya saya mau ke rumah sakit, trus dia datang dgn mobil Protonnya dan mengantar saya ke rumah sakit. Bagi saya kalo tanpa dia mungkin saya nggak tahu gimana nasib saya sekarang.
hari terakhir saya melihat dia waktu dia memulangkan buku-buku Luis yg dia pinjam. Ingin saya ucapkan terima kasih tetapi dia keburu pulang ke kampung halamannya(Penang) karena dia udah tamat. THANKS BEN..for everything.You are more than friend to me. I will always remember you in my heart and i wish all the best for your career.

IKUR(Iwan Kurniawan): Dia berasal dari Indonesia. saya kenal dia dia kafe V2 waktu itu saya lagi chit-chat ama anak-anak indonesia. Anaknya baik sekali. Selalu kalo ketemu dia nggak pernah lupa untuk menyapa. Kalo lagi makan bareng di kafe, selalu kami berbicara mulai dari politik di Indonesia dan Timor-Leste sampai filem dan novel terkini. Waktu dia mau pulang kampung dia sempat SMS aku: " Gaspar...gw blk kampung dulu ya. Keep in touch n gud luck". Iwan Good Luck to you too...

JANDI, BISMO, DINI, AMANDA, KENA, HEXI: ini dia cewek dan cowok dari Indonesia yg saya kenal. mereka juga udah tamat. Jandi bulan Januari ini bakal menuju ke tempat pelaminan. Dia mengajak saya untuk datang ke acaranya di Jakarta(maaf..mungkin nggak bisa kali, abis lagi kere). Amanda pernah meminjamkan novel "ayat-ayat cinta" kepada saya. Novelnya bagus banget(thanks yah Manda). All the best Guys

Azief(agak susah namanya): orangnya kurang dekat dgn saya, tetapi itulah diluar dugaan saya. Waktu saya lagi rawat inap di rumah sakit, Hanya dia yg sempat datang untuk membezuk saya. Waktu itu saya lagi lapar, abis makanan di rumah sakit sedikit sekali, mau beli makanan diluar para dokter nggak mengijinkan, mau nelfon teman bateri HP gue habis. Terpaksa saya puasa aja(gila man sakit tapi puasa). Untung Azief datang dgn buah-buahan dan kartu ucapan. Thanks Man...all the best 2 u Azief.

Lia: Teman seangkatan saya. Dia sekarang bekerja di Tafui Oil Company di Dili, Timor-Leste. Saya dgn dia mungkin agak rapat. kalo di pulang berlibur, saya selalu nitip surat dan foto untuk keluarga saya di Timor Leste. Banyak kisah dan cerita yg terjalin antara kami berdua. Ada suka dan dukanya. Saya masih ingat..waktu dia nelpon saya, lagi menangis di HPnya. Trus saya datang, dia curhat ama saya(waktu itu dia lagi bete ama doinya)...Dia memiliki sifat "caring". Waktu saya lagi sakit..dia yg merekomendasi kpd saya untuk memasak bubur campur dgn sayur, nggak boleh makan makanan pedis, mandi dgn air panas, pake baju yg tebal kalo ke class, dll. Pokoknya dia bagaikan seorang kakak (siapa yg mempersunting dia..bakal nggak kecewa deh)

BERSAMBUNG.........

ps: if ur name is not here means u r still here in UTP or will coming soon :D

Ada Apa Dengan Perpustakaan???

2007-11-19T13:16:00.001-08:00

Usually library is associated with people who are in bahasa they called "Kutu Buku". Means people who like to read a lot of book. As we all know, not all the people like to go library and read books, so the question is why people still go to library or in this case why student in University Technology Petronas (UTP) go to IRC when most of them (include me) not interested reading books?? wanna know...here the answers:

It free Air Cond...u can go there and sit there and when get sleepy comeback to room and take nap :)
Reads free magazine...without paying :D
Place to showing off, you boyfriend or girlfriend....
Place to be near to ur boy/girl friend without Pak Guard tangkap basah (get caught)
Place to gossips....oh..ahh..that's he's girlfriend??...What new one again??
Place to find soulmate....:D
Lastly just sit there and give strange look to those coupled, and think what the hell with this world(pretend to be saint..:p)

No wonder.....TV3 make a promotion about shampoo with library as backround.....

Sahabat Vs Pacar

2007-11-19T12:49:00.000-08:00

SAHABAT

Hubungan tak akan pernah putus
Tak ada namanya cemburu
No next stage
Therefore: bukan orang yang ada disampingmu menemani hari hari tuamu

PACAR

Ada kemungkinan hubungan putus
Ada kecemburuan
Possible next stage: Marriage
Therefore ada harapan dia akan menemanimu di hari hari tuamu

Just like Angel and Airwaves said : IT HURTS....YOUR BEST FRIEND IS NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND

Timor Leste Goes To International

2007-11-17T11:29:00.000-08:00

Ada berita gembira nih...tanggal 1-2 Desember di Dili, Ibu kotanya Timor Leste, bakal diadakan event Motor Cross bertaraf International. Crosser-Crosser dari Indonesia, Australia, Selandia Baru dan Timor Leste bakal unjuk kehebatan mereka di Sirkuit Delta Speed Way Taci Tolu. Australia bahkan gone wild dengan menurunkan crosser wanita mereka demi meramaikan event ini. Betul nih Aussie????

Sukes yah...buat Crosser-Crosser Timor Leste.

"ITA MOS BELE/We Also Can Do It"

Rindu

2007-11-13T10:38:00.000-08:00

Belakangan ini, saya mulai dilanda rasa kangen...lebih lebih kangen ama ortu(orang tua) dan adik adik saya(termasuk si dia :D)....mungkin karena udah dekat liburan semester jadi rasa rindu, kangen + sepi semakin terasa. gimana nggak??? wong...kurang dua minggu lagi, semua orang akan meninggalkan kampus dan ini berarti kampus ini bakal sepi. Bagi saya itu sudah menjadi hal yang biasa tapi tahun ini agak beda karena saya sekarang tinggal di single room, jadi nggak ada orang yg bakal nemanin gue apalagi teman-teman saya semua pulang untuk berlibur..*sigh*

Tadi malam....karena ini mengusir rasa rindu, saya putarkan lagu Brooery Marantika "widuri", eh malah rasa rindu semakin bertambah aja. Aduh...gimana nih?? mau tidur juga nggak bisa, belajar juga nggak ada mood, pokoknya gue betul-betul homesick.

Saya nggak tahu apa yang harus ku tulis lagi, karena saat ini pun rasa homesick masih terasa....
ingin berdoa juga saya merasa nggak enak ama TUHAN karena udah lama saya nggak ke gereja, nggak pernah berdoa dll. Jadi saat kayak gini baru berdoa, saya rasa diri saya seorang yg oportunis dan munafik. Tapi kata orang " Sembahyanglah, sebelum anda disembahyangkan" jadi saya putuskan untuk berdoa siapa tahu Tuhan mendengar doa dan meringankan beban rasa ini.

Inilah doaku dalam bentuk surat...:D biar lebih funky + cool githu....

Edisi tak bertanggal

Jalan Jalan Ke Ipoh....
Sebelum sampe di Ipoh...
Singgah dulu di Batu Gajah
Baca dulu surat ini...
Sebelum di buang....

Tuhan...sebelum penaku mengotori kertas putih ini, saya ingin Anda baca dulu suratku ini sebelum berhenti di tempat sampah...bisakan??????? :D

Tuhan...
Aku tahu kalo aku ini tidak berhak meminta dari pertolonganMU
Atau meminta ampunMU
Karena aku tahu siapa diriku ini...
Dan aku sadar aku memang tak berhak

Tuhan....Telah banyak kali aku melukaiMU
Telah banyak kali, aku mengkhianati perintahMU
Sama seperti pasir dipantai, begitulah dosaku

Tapi..Tuhan hal ini terjadi bukan karena aku melupakanMu
Tapi karena aku tengah berada di persimpangan jalan
Aku jadi bingung, pilih jalan yg mana.
Aku takut...nanti aku salah memilih jalan
Karena ketakutanku maka aku memilih untuk berdiri ditengah jalan aja.
Biar aku terpaku disitu
Sambil berharap waktu akan membuat saya dewasa untuk memilih jalan kiri atau kanan.

Tapi tak sangka...berdiri ditengah jalan banyak juga rintangan
Dan tanpa sadar aku terjatuh dan mulai melupakanMU

Seperti kata band Ungu...
Aku manusia yg nggak pantas di surga
Tapi aku juga takut neraka...
Tuhan...ada pepatah inggris yg mengatakan everybody deserves second chance
Jadi Tuhan...can u give another chance please...
biar aku rubah diriku ini.

KIV: Tuhan, Tolong ringankan rasa kangenku, abis terlalu menyiksaku....

Akhir Kata Makasih banyuuuaaak.....dan kalo Tuhan ada apa-apa yg ingin dikatakan, telpon aja ke "HATIKU"akan ku dengar dari situ.....

Aduh..Tuhan, udah yah saya mau bobo dulu, esok ada ujian GeoTechnical lagi....

Byeeeee.....

Tanpa Judul(Tajuk)......credit:NN

2007-11-10T11:19:00.000-08:00

Ya Tuhan, kalau dia memang jodohku, dekatkanlah...
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, Jodohkanlah....
Jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku, maka jadikanlah kami jodoh...
Kalau dia bukan jodohku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, selain aku...
Kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku,
jangan sampai dia dapet jodoh yang lain,
biarinkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti diriku...
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh, jodohkanlah kami kembali...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah! Jodohkanlah dengan ku....
Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain,
biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dan kemudian
Jodohkan kembali dia denganku...
Amin....

Ada Yg Tertinggal Di Sana....

2007-11-05T07:27:00.001-08:00

Kelantan....sebuah kota yg begitu sederhana namun ketika pertama kali menginjak kaki di bumi "Serambi Mekah"nya Malaysia itu, gue langsung kagum serta mengangkat topi untuk kota ini. Walau mereka dianak-tirikan ama pemerintah pusat(gara-gara basis partai oposisi) tapi mereka nggak pernah ngaku kalah dan terus berkarya untuk maju kedepan. Any way...lupakan aja politik mending ngomong yg lain aja ya..mau dengar cerita saya nggak????

Hari Pertama: Kita(Mahasiswa dari UTP) nyampe di Kelantan sekitar jam 5 sore, trus langsung cek in ke hotel (nggak ada bintangnya :D). Malam hari, Wong ama Joe ngajak kita(saya & Zihan) untuk dinner diluar sekalian nonton bola (MU vs Arsenal). Sebenarnya saya bukan gilbol(gila bola) tapi karena diajak ama teman yah...ikut aja dan ternyata memang bagus deh permainan Arsenal waktu menjamu MU....gila man...2 minit sebelum gamenya habis, si Gallas merobek gawangnya MU dan akhirnya menjadikan skor 2-2. Muka gue jadi merah alias malu...gimana nggak ketika C.Ronaldo mencetak gol kedua, gue ama fans setan merah pada lompat-lompat kayak kita lagi "high"...ehh tak sampe 1 minit Arsenal menyamakan gol lagi....busyet...gua jadi sakit hati + malu ama fans arsenal.Hari kedua(site visit): pertama s'kali kita pergi ke HYM bridge construction, tripnya nggak seru abis hujan tapi dipaksain aja...abis trip makan siang di KFC..nyam..nyam..nyam...enak bangueet...trus di lanjutkan ke TrusStar company, melihat gimana proses pembuatan concrete, transfer concrete, dll. Trus di tutup dgn acara rumah terbuka.Hari ketiga: Berbelanja di Rantau Panjang. Rantau Panjang mrp tempat murah meriah..dimana anda boleh mendapatkan apa aja dgn harga yg murah. Soal asli apa nggak, gua nggak peduli yg penting keren and cool gitu aja :)...di sana gua beli 1 celana jeans, 1 kemeja lengan panjang, 1 baju M Utd, dan ikat pinggang GUCCI. Abis shopping, sorenya kita pulang kembali ke UTP....
walau hanya 3 hari tetapi field trip itu memang bagus karena gua bisa kenalan ama banyak teman, bisa melihat kehidupan diluar kampus itu gimana, dll....konklusinya ditambahin field tripnya boleh nggak Dr. Fadhil???? ehhhe...ehhhe.

"Manusia Setengah Dewa"

2007-11-02T10:55:00.000-07:00

Kata orang sahabat itu bagaikan Dewa yg selalu menemani kita baik suka maupun duka dan gue setuju banget ama definisi sahabat diatas. Selama ini gue nggak pernah merasakan apa itu arti dari sebuah persahabatan, karena menurut gue sahabat itu hanya sekadar bilang "hai, apa kabar, udah makan belum, gimana testnya, udah submit assignment apa belum dll" tapi ternyata saya salah karena arti sahabat itu lebih dari obrolan basa-basi.Sahabat adalah Manusia setengah Dewa. Nah..Puisi berikut ini gue persembahkan khas buat sahabat-sahabat saya: Luis, Filipe, Ernesto, Sonio, Machel, Pedro, Bennet, Zihan, Hillary dll (kalo yg nggak disebut namanya jangan marah, abis kalo ketik disini 10 halaman juga bakal nggak cukup abis banyak bangueeet)

KITA

Kita tersenyum indah dalam kesedihan,
Menyanyi sedih dalam keriangan,
Tak perduli apa kata dunia...
karena hati kita menyatu....
Jiwa kita berbagi...
Biar saja kepiluan menyelimuti...
Tapi,
Aku akan tetap menari bahagia...
Karena kamu adalah aku....

"Makasih Semuanya"

:amelia f

Selamat Jalan Oktober 07

2007-11-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

Baru aja berlalu bulan Oktober...hmmm...banyak kenangan yg bakal gua bawa bersama sang waktu sambil menunggu rezeki di bulan November :D....
any way...saya pengen flashback kisah kisah Oktober. Pertama...saya bisa mengenal kamu....kamu...yah kamu yg lagi membaca blog ini !!! kata orang banyak teman banyak rezeki yah..eh..salah, sebenarnya anak yah :) kedua: akhirnya saya bisa punya blog sendiri (walau tulisan masih ngawur alias bahasa pasar)...ketiga: saya udah stop berobat ke dokter....Syukur dan puji Tuhan....ehmm....apalagi yah...gue hampir diputusin ama doi, karna gue nggak balas sms doi....trus dia marah....biasalah naluri wanita :D....trus test concrete saya hancur :(
trus...apa yah....???? Ah.... entar aja saya lanjutin yah, nih mau bobo udah ngantuk....

Haloween antara kontroversi dan tradisi

2007-10-31T00:55:00.000-07:00

Wanna see Dracula, ghost, Lucifer, or local ghost; Pontianak, Pocong alive and walking among ourselves??? Most people can find easily during Halloween Day because on this day people dress according to their favorite “ghost hero”. In this day people go around to surprise each other with their scary costume, so watch out for those who afraid of ghost and have heart problem.

This day(Halloween day) and Valentine day are 2 of the most controversial days for some country. I don’t wanna state which country but for me what ever the regulations in those country I still respect and follow it, as one of the Malay proverb state “Dimana Bumi Di Pijak, Di Situ Langit Di Junjung” [wherever you go, respect that culture]

So let’s put the differences and controversies aside and try to look in other angle and that what I’m going to share with all of you about how people celebrate Halloween day in Timor – Leste.

In Timor-Leste, Halloween day is kind of religious day because people consider this day as day for those who past away so in this day usually all the schools and offices are off. In early morning many people go to church and pray for the souls and in afternoon they will visit cemeteries(graves) as sign of love for those people who passed away.

One of the good thing about Halloween day is that on this day, we will have a lot of food such as ketupat, Lemang, Nasi Ayam & etc. So here in Malaysia people will eat katupat, lemang during Idul Fitri but its different for Timorese people.

So now…we can see how people celebrate Halloween in different ways, people in the western country associated Halloween as day ghost party whereas people in eastern associated Halloween as religious day…..

Since tomorrow is going to be “Halloween Day” therefore I just wanna to this say

God..I know I am not worthy to pray to you
Because I am sinners
I was born because of sin, grow up in sin, live in sin world
And I will die with sin
But there is only one thing I just wanna say: accept those souls that you have call back and bring them into your eternal kingdom….Amin.

Patriotisme dan Sepak Bola

2007-10-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

Tahun 2007 merupakan tahun pertama dimana TLS ikut kualifikasi piala dunia 2010. TLS di letakkan dgn pasukan Hongkong. Di atas kertas TLS akan kalah karena tim TLS bukanlah "Tim-Nas" yg sebenarnya. Mereka adalah para pemain klub yg dipanggil lalu di tukar nama menjadi Tim-Nas. Menurut ranking yg dikeluarkan oleh FIFA, TLS berada di ranking ke 200 dari 209 Tim-Nas di dunia, jadi sudah dibayangkan TLS bakal kalah.

Tapi satu yg saya patut ajungkan jempol ialah semangat Patriotsime dan pantang menyerah. TLS baru aja "tenteram" dari konfik 2006, dan nggak ada persiapan apapun untuk menentang tim Hongkong(ranking 134) tapi mereka bisa mencetak 2 gol dan akhirnya kalah 3-2.

Fasilitas lapangan TLS belum memenuhi standar international, dan nggak ada persiapan apapun tapi para pemain TLS tetap "ngotot" untuk mengibarkan bendera TLS dan menyanyikan lagu "Patria-Patria" dilapangan bola sepak.

Meminjam pepatah melayu " kalah dan menang adat permainan" walaupun kalah tapi yg penting semangat untuk berjuang dan memberikan yg terbaik dalam setiap pertandingan itu yg lebih penting(walau dalam hati ingin TLS menang :D) dan akhir sekali sukses buat dunia sepak bola TLS

"Sukses yah untuk pertandingan di Hongkong tanggal 28 Nov 2007 "

ITA MOS BELE / WE CAN DO IT

Sekilas Info Tentang Tim-Nas TLS

Nama : Federacao Futebol Timor-Leste

Konfederasi : AFC (Asia)

Ketua Pelatih : Joao Paulo

Kapten : Alfredo Esteves

Ranking FIFA : 200 out of 209

Cahaya Bulan

2007-10-17T10:25:00.000-07:00

Akhirnya semua akan tiba pada suatu hari yang biasa
pada suatu ketika yang telah lama kita ketahui

Apakah kau masih selembut dahulu?
memintaku minum susu dan tidur yg lelap
sambil membenamkan letak leher kemejaku

kabut tipispun turun pelan pelan di lembah kasih
lembah mandala wangi

Kau dan aku tegak berdiri
melihat hutan-hutan yang menjadi suram
meresapi belaian angin yang menjadi dingin

Apakah kau masih membelaiku semesra dahulu?
ketika kudekap, kau dekaplah lebih mesra
lebih dekat

Apakah kau masih akan berkata
kudengar detak jantungmu

Kita begitu berbeda dalam semua
kecuali dalam cinta

Me, Myself and Che Guevara

2007-10-16T09:23:00.000-07:00

Gue mulai kenal Che waktu zaman SD(primary school), karena banyak orang yg melukiskan gambar Che dinding dan juga menyablon baju atau kemeja mereka dgn gambar Che. Pertama kali nggak tertarik ama Che,mungkin waktu saya masih kecil kali...tapi memasuki zaman SMA, saya mulai bertanya siapakah Che itu? apa visi dan misinya? kok kenapa semua anak-anak muda suka memakai baju Che dan gambar Che? namun karena keterbatasan waktu dan media akhirnya semua pertanyaan tsb tidak terjawab.

Nah pas masuk Uni, gua mulai mencari berita tentang Che...apalagi tahun 2005-2006 merupakan tahun "kiamat"bagi Fretilin, banyak orang melakukan protes, "gereja" dan partai oposisi mulai menuduh katanya Fretilin beraliran komunis lah...sosialis lah bahkan dituduh pengikut aliran marxist-lenin.

Klimaksnya waktu Cuba memberikan biasiswa gratis kepada ribuan pelajar dari Tim-Les untuk kuliah disana dan kedatangan para dokter Cuba ke Tim-Les. Hal tsb semakin menambah rasa penasaran saya tentang Cuba terlebihnya si Che Guevara. Karena udah kagak tahan rasa penasaran, gua mulai nyari info tentang Che di internet, gua nonton filem dokumentasi "The diaries of motorbike" yg gua dapat di DC++, gua baca surat-surat yg Ia kirim ke Fidel Castro serta teman-teman de-el-el. Dari situ gua mulai suka akan dan hormat kepada Che Guevara dan mulai mengidolakannya. Sayapun mulai mengumpulkan koleksi-koleksi Che baik buku, baju,key chain, foto dan juga topinya....saking ngefans ama Che Guevara, saya malah dikenal di Kampus sbg si "Comandante", brotherhood dll...

Mungkin yah(nggak bermaksud sombong dan hanya mungkin) saya lah orang pertama yg memperkenalkan Che Guevara di Kampus dan hasilnya...saya udah lihat anak-anak Malay(yg notabene muslim)pun mulai timbul rasa ingin tahu, siapa sebenarnya Che, apa idiologi dia dll, karena kebanyakan mereka mengira si Che ini orang komunis yg Jahat(org Malaysia paling takut komunis, buktinya Chin Peng kagak pernah balik). Dan saya yakin suata saat Che akan "hidup" di Malaysia seperti di Tim-Les. Amin....

VIVA LA REVOLUCION

HASTA LA VITORIA SIEMPRE

Minal Aidin Wal Fai'dzin

2007-10-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1428 H

"TAQABBALALLAHU MINNA WA MINKUM
MINAL AIDIN WAL FAI'DZIN"

MOHON MAAF LAHIR BATIN UNTUK SEMUANYA

Dua Puluh Dua Tahun

2007-10-15T16:37:00.000-07:00

Dua puluh dua
tanpa terasa
makin tua
s'moga juga makin dewasa

Duapuluh dua

belum apa-apa
masih kuliah
nyambil kerja
mendua arah

Dua puluh dua
tak terasa
harus segera
mencari cinta
lalu menikah
tapi aku belum wisuda
ha...ha...ha...

sorry yah...puisinya ku ambil....(lupa nama pengarangnya)

Rest In Peace...Grand Ma

2007-10-15T15:07:00.000-07:00

Jam 5 sore gue nerima telpon dari rumah. "nenek mu udah meninggal dunia" kata paman....mulut saya terkunci, tak ada kalimat yg keluar. aku terdiam untuk sejenak.Aku mendesah dan ku tutup telpon, hanya air mata yg mengalir.

"Nek...maafkan aku yah...saya nggak bisa berada di samping mu dan nggak bisa menghantar nenek ke tempat peristirahatan terakhir"

sebenarnya liburan ini saya mau pulang dan menjengkuk nenek, bahkan saya telah membeli sehelai kain batik khas buat nenek tapi sayangnya nenek berpulang lebih awal dari dugaanku.

nenek...segala jasa dan budi baik serta kasih sayang nenek, saya takkan mampu untuk membayar namun hanya satu ygn bisa kulakukan "Semoga Tuhan bisa menerima nenek disampingNya"

The begin of new life

2007-10-15T14:29:00.000-07:00

i have been dreaming to have blog since long time(3 years back) but i never get what i want.one of the reason, i was lazy to create blog though internet is avalaible 24 hour in my room but i never utilized to its maximum....

**sigh** i missed all the opportunities and chances that i had..any way...

So ladies and gentlemen please give warm applause to our new comer Mr.Musafir Jalanan and his blog.....*clap* clap*clap*

ahem..(mic testing)

I create this blog after i came cross to enda nasution's blog(indonesia top blogger) and i was amazing about his blog so i decide to create for my self a blog.

mmm.... this blog created on 16 October 2007 at 5:30 am

nothing much i want to write here coz i am still new comer and pls correct me if there is grammatical errors in my english(i m sure there is).....as saying goes learn from mistake.

Thank You....